Thursday, June 25, 2009
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Mood : Woozy & Sickk | Song : Can't Stop - Erick Right
Love is so overcomming isn't it , so powerful , so addictive , soo i romantic .
and all that ruined and changed my life forever .
Well to me nowadays love is really nothing anymore . after what i found , i dont really give a fuck who i said the 3 words to well except for this one person . Today my lil sister cindy wanted to die because of this cruel feeling . but she told me she would overcome this feeling and let it all go , im very proud of her , and i have alot of hope in her , i swear if she overcomes this feeling , ill buy her a huge lollipop :) . ahhhh love love love fck who cares about it , theres no such this as the one anyways , theres alot of fishes to catch for only that one reason . i could be wrong i could be right , or i might just have a good point . love fcks you up to be honest , its just like a broken glass that i wouldnt bother trying to mend it back and try to hurt myself even more . i remember when i kept holding all my feelings in and what did it give me ? more hurt , more tears , more downs and now i know i have chosen my path to let it all go lmaos i feel so free , i feel like nothing matters , i feel like all i really need are my brothers and my fellow sisters i love them the most . i guess im finished :D
Love is so overcomming isn't it , so powerful , so addictive , soo i romantic .
and all that ruined and changed my life forever .
Well to me nowadays love is really nothing anymore . after what i found , i dont really give a fuck who i said the 3 words to well except for this one person . Today my lil sister cindy wanted to die because of this cruel feeling . but she told me she would overcome this feeling and let it all go , im very proud of her , and i have alot of hope in her , i swear if she overcomes this feeling , ill buy her a huge lollipop :) . ahhhh love love love fck who cares about it , theres no such this as the one anyways , theres alot of fishes to catch for only that one reason . i could be wrong i could be right , or i might just have a good point . love fcks you up to be honest , its just like a broken glass that i wouldnt bother trying to mend it back and try to hurt myself even more . i remember when i kept holding all my feelings in and what did it give me ? more hurt , more tears , more downs and now i know i have chosen my path to let it all go lmaos i feel so free , i feel like nothing matters , i feel like all i really need are my brothers and my fellow sisters i love them the most . i guess im finished :D
Thursday, June 18, 2009
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Mood : Tired & Sleepy | Song : The Truth - Daniel D
Ahhh back on blogger haha .
Gee nothings really changed much .
Other than me going back to Cabramatta High . I swear i have to let myself go , gotta stop thinking about her and thinking everything would go back to the way it was , i wish too much as you can see . but if only they came true :( , atm i just really miss her and i dont know what i should do , all i can ever think about is tryna get her back with me , but i guess she never will , ive tried many many times . next week on tuesday is probably officially 2 months after when she left me , damn .. this used to be so easy for me , usually its like i like a girl ask em out and then later we break up and i would get over it in like 2 mins but this relationship was like a drug , ill tell you that . i guess when i was with mimi , she was like my own pack of heroin , i loved her that much and hoping for us to last for a life time or something but i guess it all ends , if only she knew how i feel , if only she returned back into my arms . even though i went out with another girl after her , the other girl was probably what i wanted not what i needed ... mimi is what i need , i guess she didnt trust me with her heart . tshh nowadays its really hard to find a girl like that , mimi was one of the best thing that ever happend to me , no regrets no tears just alot of hurt and alot of thoughts , out of all the girls ive ever had in my whole life , why was it only her that ive ever loved till this day , its like incredible , i loved her at first sight at first i really didnt wanna say anything because i had no guts and till that day 23209 i still didnt have guts to ask her out so i told 2 of my friends to say it for me . if only i had one last chance to be back with mimi , i would be a happy person again , i wouldnt be as angry as i am today , i wouldnt have been fighting , all i would be doing is spend time with her thats all i will ever do . i just love mimi too much to let her go , all i ever would want is for her smile , that is what would make my day . mimi being happy means the world to me , i wanna say sorry to her for mucking up by now i bet she regrets being with me , but shit happens.
Arghhh if only i could go straight up to her and ask her for one last chance and tell her how i feel . but going up to her is like me having to win the world war . yes thats how hard it is .
if somehow i miracle happend and she told me she loves me , i would tell her i love her till the fucking end and im gonna mean it with my whole life. yes you may think im an idiot thinking everything lasts forever , i know that but its how i think it seems like it .
Mimi i love you like no other person on this earth
i miss you like crazy and i dont know what im ever gonna do without you
your the only person that ever kept my heart so safe
i just wanna be a good person to you and everything that you need
even when i go back to cabramatta high , i would always know that ill be missing you
i figured what i need and its you , no one else because it wouldnt be the same , every tears that i cry is how much i love you , every hug i give shows how deeply i need you , every kiss shows how committed i am to keep your heart safe , every smile i give you shows your are beautiful , every touch i give would make me and you fly into heaven and life forever in eachothers arms .
if your reading this mimi , i mean every god damn word ..<3>
Friday, June 12, 2009
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Mood : Tired | Music : Before You Go - Stevie Hoang
Farr what a year i've had so far .
lets start by saying i was dumped by the person that i assumed as " the one ".
here name was Mimi . the person i loved the most , the person who i cherished every moment with :( . We started off a Friends , until i made her a promise , for her to be happy . and then i treated her like a sister and a few days later i fell for her . we started off so perfect at first , we had our laughs , our tears , our moments , our kisses and most of all eachother . it was the time of our lives , until something came between us , she told me she fell for another guy , i was crushed and angry . i was supposed to be over her but until after awhile on our break up . we started to fall for eachother again , she told me she still loved me and told me to let her have awhile to think about it , while the holidays had begun i called her and talked and talked , until when i logged on to msn . i saw on her pm saying " i love superdan( L ) " , first i was liek is that her friend or that person she fell for , i was furious , i went straight at her and told her off . i regret it , coz the holidays was the only chance to get her back . Term 2 started , it was a shit day, i still remember her ignoring me and stuff . i was like to myself why dont i just get over her now , it was hard but it worked , well for only awhile anyways . i couldnt stop thinking about her ever since , i wanted to stop but i kept seeing her everyday , i knew she was over me but i couldnt get over her , ( this is probably the first time i ever felt like this towards a girl i swear ) a couple of months past , until this day me and mimi we became good friends but that didnt really change anything and i hooked up with my ex fiona we lasted for only a week because we lost feelings again . when i broke up with fiona , mimi was the first person that was there and supporting me , i thought i was over her but then i started to like her again and now it just bothers me , and it pissed me off so hard that i just felt like letting myself go again . and yeah thast pretty much it , its depressing but it was worth it since this was the first time i ever felt liek i found an angel that came from above .
Farr what a year i've had so far .
lets start by saying i was dumped by the person that i assumed as " the one ".
here name was Mimi . the person i loved the most , the person who i cherished every moment with :( . We started off a Friends , until i made her a promise , for her to be happy . and then i treated her like a sister and a few days later i fell for her . we started off so perfect at first , we had our laughs , our tears , our moments , our kisses and most of all eachother . it was the time of our lives , until something came between us , she told me she fell for another guy , i was crushed and angry . i was supposed to be over her but until after awhile on our break up . we started to fall for eachother again , she told me she still loved me and told me to let her have awhile to think about it , while the holidays had begun i called her and talked and talked , until when i logged on to msn . i saw on her pm saying " i love superdan( L ) " , first i was liek is that her friend or that person she fell for , i was furious , i went straight at her and told her off . i regret it , coz the holidays was the only chance to get her back . Term 2 started , it was a shit day, i still remember her ignoring me and stuff . i was like to myself why dont i just get over her now , it was hard but it worked , well for only awhile anyways . i couldnt stop thinking about her ever since , i wanted to stop but i kept seeing her everyday , i knew she was over me but i couldnt get over her , ( this is probably the first time i ever felt like this towards a girl i swear ) a couple of months past , until this day me and mimi we became good friends but that didnt really change anything and i hooked up with my ex fiona we lasted for only a week because we lost feelings again . when i broke up with fiona , mimi was the first person that was there and supporting me , i thought i was over her but then i started to like her again and now it just bothers me , and it pissed me off so hard that i just felt like letting myself go again . and yeah thast pretty much it , its depressing but it was worth it since this was the first time i ever felt liek i found an angel that came from above .
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